Wednesday, September 04, 2013

This is the last time...


Isn't that what we say to ourselves when we try to give up an addiction? I've been going through something similar myself.

At first when I made up my mind, I was confident...nay, over-confident. "Pfft, who needs this. I am not defined by this...I am awesome!" and the like.

 What It Feels Like To Quit Smoking

Then, I became totally smug. Everywhere I looked I saw clueless people mindlessly indulging in that stupid piece of crap I was indulging in till yesterday. "Ugh, I can't believe I was one of them", "Don't you see what a hold this thing has on you?". Clearly, I am better than them.


What It Feels Like To Quit Smoking


Slowly, self doubt starts to kick in. And then an epiphany...those people aren't mindless, they're happy. And I am sad. I need to get back to my addiction, I really do. Dang, why did I quit in the first place!


What It Feels Like To Quit Smoking

And then the turbulent pro-con battle begins.

Pro: It's good for you to quit it.
Con: Is it really good for you to quit it?

Pro: You can now focus on more productive things.
Con: Can you really focus on anything more productive than that?

Pro: Subconsciously, you hate yourself for your addiction.
Con: Does your subconscious really hate you?

Obviously, the cons are more convincing because the italicized 'really' makes a huge difference.

Well one more wouldn't hurt. On to level 51 of candy crush then. Damn, I can never stay away from it for too long.

3 comments:

Divya Mani said...

OMG.... how did you beat level 45! I have been stuck in that for weeks...

I have even started growing magical powers.. I keep staring at the blue candy hoping it will turn into yellow... and it does.. (in my sleep atleast!)

I don't like the cry baby everytime i lose... waaaa':-(

tyler_durden said...

I am on level 201.
Its not that i play much, its just that i am awesome at it.

Unknown said...

Haha. ...candy crush ku thaana...... I think I will be an addict starting with level 1 today.....